So, things didn’t quite work out with the local river rat. Maybe we can be friends or something. But our differences were too much I guess. Is what I would really like is someone I can build a life and a home togther. Basically what I had with my Ex. But I screweed that up. I wish I could find someone who would rather spend time around family or the house then out partying I guess. I sorta doubt that is going to happen any time soon out here, but I doubt I am ready for that yet. I am still feeling emotionally unavliable and don’t think I would be up for a relationship yet. I guess I am still having a hard time letting go of my Ex. I still love him deeply and wish he would give me another chance. But thats not gonna happen anytime soon.
So with all this on my mind I needed to get away for a while and sort some things out in my mind. I do need to get my life straigthened out and work towards a better life. I feel bad that I have neglected certian things in my life. I have neglected my ex and some of the people close to him. My reasoning at the time was that it hurt too much to be around him or people that constantly reminded me of him. But that is a lowsy excuse and I really need to make it up to them.
But on with me getting my life straightened out. I need to start spending more energy on the things in life that will help me out such as getting in better shape, fixing my finances, and education. Maybe if I get a decent education, have the experience from my Job, and get my finances in order, some day I might be able to move to a city where I have a decent chance of finding someone to spend my life with.
Hopefully and maybe I will get lucky and find someone here in town. I would like to do that since I do love it here. But in a couple years if I am still here and single and able to get my life togther I just may have to move away. But only if I have to.
Anyways … sory about the poor pitty me story. I do have soo much to be thankful for. I have My Family and few friends that I do love and adore. I also have a great boss and job that I would love to continue for as long as I can.
I did have a great time in SLC and it was very relaxing. I went down to the library to work since its such a good atmosphere then hung out with my friend roger. On friday evening I went down and stayed the night at my grandma’s. In the morning we woke up at 5AM and went and hiked Timpanogos. It was soo pretty there watching the sun rise over the valley’s. It was a great hike but a long one. We did at least 8 hours of solid hiking. I am going to attatch some of the pictures from that trip to this post.